I was doing our vocation campaign that day. I saw a beautiful maiden seating in a wooden chair beside the garden of the School. I saw her so lonely. I remember her when I was in the class room speaking in front of them talking about vocation. I saw her seating alone. She was beautiful and her eye is in gloom. I went over her and she saw me walking near to her. She gave me a beautiful smile at her very first glance on me. And so, I responsed by giving my dog liked smile on her. Her eye turned to be so beautiful at that moment. She looked on to my eye and I stare on her eye. I went on her because I saw her beautiful. When I was near, she started to say “hi” on me. At that moment, I raised my hand on her and shout; in the name of Jesus Christ our beloved and merciful Father you will fall in love with me. Shiwewewiwing.....so much for that, when I saw her at the garden. Yes, she was beautiful and I went near to her. When she give me a smile my heart lifted up. We used to look on its others eye and giving its others smile. I was about to say hellow on her. A voice on my head is saying; patay seminarista man diay ku. When remember that thing I was already able to say hellow on her. I saw a thing in which I don’t know I pretend that It was important and fled away from her I walked away from her I ask myself of what vocation do my life will end. I try to journey towards religious vocation but it seems the other vocation is calling. I have a lot of confusions on my vocation. I want this vocation I have now n and I don’t want to lose it. I cannot expect that this vocation will be mine for ever. I cannot have both religious and married life. Nor married and single blessedness. I am hungry for a true vocation. To be married and to be a religious is so impossible. A priest or a nun cannot be at the same time, be marry. A seminarian cannot have a girl friend. He is supposed to be single. It is true that a seminarian doesn’t need to separate himself to a woman simply because he is a seminarian? As a seminarian we don’t need to separate our self to a woman. A woman is still a part of our life. The only thing that we cannot do is to put a special relationship on them. Still now I am still searching for the vocation which really for me. I am still hoping that I may have a vocation in which I may love. I always ask God to send me a vocation. A vocation he wants for me. I hope that I may not ask for more. For the reason that I want the vocation that I have now.
